I skipped writing my “end of the month” post for April, for Reasons. Those reasons were that the semester was ending, I was feeling incredibly overwhelmed, and the card for May was Failure. I wasn’t quite ready to face what that might mean for my grades, our road trip, or any number of projects I had coming to fruition at that time.
Going back to April for a moment, the card was Wisdom. April was such a blur for me that at this point I can’t remember what it could have applied to, except maybe that I could have really used some.
May, it turns out, was all about burning out completely. In school, in my practice, in life in general. I was fighting with my husband, flailing around spiritually, and just a mess in general. Thankfully, I managed to bake the fucking cookies and also sort things out with Adam.
June’s card is Healing and I cannot express how badly I need that card right now. The process began over the course of Memorial Day weekend, when I and the other members of the Fellowship traveled to Canada to participate in the Witches’ Sabbat. There will be another post forthcoming about that, but the short version is that I have been washed clean in the cauldron. I know what I need to do, and it all involves going back to the basics.
This month should be calmer. I’m still doing a lot, but it’s one of each thing instead of three or four, and the “same schedule every day” situation should keep me focused. I’m going into June with a lot more optimism than I’ve had in a long time, and it feels good.