December’s card was Bond. December has, interestingly enough, been a month where I spent a lot of time in bed recovering from the semester, and what little time out of bed was spent with friends and family. I still feel disconnected from people around me, and that’s something I want to work on in the next year.
The hardest part is trying to balance my genuine need for some solitude against my general desire to avoid stimulus at all costs (which keeps me inside far more often than I would like). I often can’t tell until I’m in the middle of something whether I actually don’t want to do it or I’m just being chicken.
I catch myself looking ahead all the time, planning and worrying about stuff I’m not doing right now and failing to enjoy the moments I have, so that’s something I’m trying to avoid doing in the future as well.
Overall, I think this yearly spread did a pretty good job of helping me focus my energies this year. I’ll be doing another one today and posting about it tomorrow, so look for that!